even when I'm holding the broken pieces of my
craziest and most precious dreams in my hands.
I wish I had the faith to instantly turn to God
and say with a sincere heart,
"I didn't get what I wanted,
But I am still thankful."
I wish I had the strength and the wisdom to know
that God's plans are greater than
my wildest dreams.
But I simply do not.
I am broken and
human
and not fully formed into
the woman God has made me to
become.
I am not yet
wise
I am not yet
strong
My faith is yet
to be tested further
My heart is yet
to be filled with grace.
This is my short and whole-hearted petition.
That though I am not feeling strong or faithful or thankful,
That though my dreams have been dulled to a slight glimmer,
I will,
Someday,
Find the grace to say truly and sincerely,
"God, You knew what You were doing then,
And You still do,
And You count my tears,
And You love me still."
Dreams are not always made to come true.
Sometimes dreams are made to show you
there's something so much better
in store.
...Love, Anna...
oh anna! My heart is not there yet either. Most days I know the right things, know God has a plan, know He knows best, etc...but I don't feel it and I doubt and I am blind...Oh to have faith to say "It is all yours...and I TRUST you because you are faithful and good...I know you have my best interest at heart and even though I can't see, I trust you and am thankful"...Oh to have those words...He is working Anna, girl, He is working...He is faithful and WILL finish what He has begun in us...until then, we must continue growing in the women He is shaping us into...even in the moments of not feeling it. I love you sweet cousin!!
ReplyDeleteWow Anna. That was so beautiful and true.. You have so much wisdom and it is such a blessing to hear it come out in your writing!! I love you so much, god is truly at work in your heart..
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