And This is All I Know

All I know is that life is
horribly wonderful
and
painfully beautiful.

And that somewhere between sunrises and
graduation caps
and wedding vows
and tears,
there is growth.

And that sometimes before that growth takes place
we have to make decisions
that sometimes tear us a little.
But in order to grow,
we must stretch.

All I know is that God keeps pulling me back.
Back, constantly, and relentlessly,
despite my foolish meanderings,
my attempts to carry it all,
my refusal to let go.

And I have so much further to go,
and I am so tired.

But He is not finished with me yet.

This unfolding of years is my story,
and I am not the author,
but you're welcome to read.

All I know is that somewhere between
the bitterness,
the anger,
the months of keeping it all in,
the walls I've built,
and the words I'm too afraid to say,
is a God who knows,
a God who sees,
who loves,
who forgives.

He is writing this story, these words, and He's not finished yet.

And this is all I know.

...Love, Anna...